I hold myself to a high standard. A large amount of the time I find myself not needing to do something but doing it anyways because I know the other person really deserves that. Sometimes I know that is what I would needed if the situation was switched around. But I feel a lot of the time people do not do that for me. I don't know if this is just my generation, but it is more popular for people to just not make a response to you, not take seconds out of their day to recognise effort, and just hide. I don't know what it is. I don't understand what makes people do this. Is it a lack of respect? Do you just not like me? Do you not care?
As I am going through life, things have become more intensified. I give my heart out to others in a way that I haven't ever been capable of before - and I love that I have started to develop that. But simultaneously I have experienced many attitudes that are just the grandest turnoffs I've ever come by. I try to find that balance between giving people chances, and deciding to walk away. It's hard to let people around you go especially when there is no massive blowup of any sort.
It's hard to turn off trying to bring others joy. Because that is what it really comes down to for me. I try and bring others as much joy as I am capable of during the day. I try and make people laugh. I attempt to give them a little leg up, some confidence, some spark to their day that may actually make it all that miles better. I do not expect them to do exactly same for me...but I do look for respect, and if it's not there, I don't attempt to convince them...I just move on and end up leaving.
Finding the balance has been incredibly hard on my heart lately. But in all honesty, I know what I must do. I have to walk away. I must respect myself enough, the type of person I am and not really settle for something less than I know what I truly deserve. You must know what you are worth. If you do not believe you are 100% worth it, you will never settle for just anything. Remember, people only treat you certain ways by what you accept from them.
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